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t's. Sunday I will be a lady I wonder how I will look will I look like to do to fully a sauna takes your book so now is paid in some paper I will peanuts picture of me the beautiful lady with earrings I want somebody to be. Here I go to Iraq it's to be or Janet cuts come and see my rockets there I called Beyond it becomes a spaceman becomes marked the spaces is somehow the the whole general idea about the the girl was. Is that it was just less and less than being a boy. She cannot skate said Mark I can help or look at her mother just slow getter. See. I suppose from the first moment they rabbits on different colored blanket. It all began. To. The. Feeling. Of. This wave of the feminist movement was really. Women who were. Well be eight degrees or some kind of training and were standing there by the kitchen sink and saying to them. Thanks very much. Started with women who have families or who have some education and who were leading large that in no way measured up to their dreams or to their talents. I guess that makes me laugh at me that I don't know I'm jealous. Something you know to see my husband walked out the morning he told us. Thankfully. Though for the day and here I am. Women coming up a cup of milk bottles and the spend Christmas still wearing a house rule when it's eleven in the morning and it's something that the pressing about the whole thing. I was really kind of floundering I didn't know where I was going and another woman I met suggested I might try the our group so the women's movement or whatever because it helped her so much and I was not very keen on the idea but she sort of helped me into it and I went along and went down to the now Center I've never had that much contact with women and I was really very lonely and wanted to meet them but I was hesitant about the whole thing and went down there to see about. C.R. group women right friend commits me all the time. Usually they're they're hesitant a little embarrassed at first but one of the tools we found to help them actually helps them so is the sea all groups the consciousness raising where women get together. As I explained to Fran consciousness raising is something that has come out of the women's movement it wasn't done on purpose that just happened. It's also called C.R. and they have to women I've been in it for a while they may even call it a rap group but it's something totally different than anything else in society it is not therapy it is not encounter it is not sensitivity and above all it is not problem solving it is simply a process where a woman comes together with other women in a room over a period of time once a week twice whatever and they sit and talk and they get a gut feeling about what it's like to be a woman in the society that we live in. What happens in the RAF room is that if they become one last session first of all women have an opportunity to tell the truth about their experience sometimes for the first time and to be listened to seriously. Also sometimes for the first time and they become one long session or you feel like that don't have not only I felt like that. OK Well thank you I I think we'll move into a topic from growing up a girl and well it will utilize the same the consciousness or as a form of going around the circle and then each while the speak as long as they wish but brief as briefly as possible and everybody says it all. Let's say growing up a girl. Girls were always silly girls the silly sensible things for boys and silly things with girls and somehow there really didn't seem to be any great glory in being a girl. It always seemed as though the boys were more attractive and wouldn't be nice to be a boy it was something something much better about that. Well part of this socialization process that goes very deep. Certainly has to do with the way we bring up our children with the seed of it all. Whether it's such a small thing as saying to a child. Little Boys Don't Cry and little girls are coping. And black people are lazy and she counted work in the field or whatever what all of those simple sentences serve to program the child and or her or he had expectations of what the world is going to be like. They give us all the different kinds of tours when the boys are there with their construction sets building bridges conquering the world. They get very complicated story. Very simple simpler impassive Torres our girls. Were being controlled to play our role. I don't remember anybody saying to me if you get married. Who would you like that you know with always when you get merits and it was the substitute question for the one thing after the boys which was what do you want to be when you're broke. That's all kind of well I guess sort of of me but not salmon it's just never felt salmon and But why did you feel you should look. Up beautiful if your voice you wouldn't be it wouldn't matter so much what you look like with your house in the right way it would matter so much it would matter more what you did I think the thing I feel really bad about was that. I wasn't when I started to be about seven or eight and started getting really ugly and you know like that and just sort of course I'm really sick last week by phone calls in the fourth grade and it was always not living up to some other standard set by the men or step by play one magazine or step on my parents I suppose this is the first thing that happens to us is that we start to think differently about ourselves and the group we belong to we began to understand that women are not second class creatures and we are not inferior so we respect ourselves we we go through this this initial feminist realization all of a sudden it says that it's I've gotten to the embrace his must come to it's not just some people out there so it's not that I found out about new problems that exist but I suddenly found that they all ply the mates and then as the very least we begin to withdraw consent from oppression. We began to observe it to criticize or to object to us that. They have been the principal upon them to be all right the man why are they up. For the. Women work or if a few years ago. For generations and it won the right. When I come. They are already saying the con if you stand in support of women as human being it is a country of the E.R. in means equal rights amendment and it say the twenty seventh Amendment to the US Constitution to give women the same equal rights that man has in all walks of American life. What we need is the first new people into the limelight and to show the length and breadth of talent among women. Facing women are angry because it is pretty sad when you look around the status of women in this country. Nine hundred seventy three very few people in positions of power taking it seriously it's worth as like funding a fellow you know because of you don't even say you aren't even allowed the dignity of being taken seriously in a Santa Neelix gentle in a silk dress which she could quite hard for her right. Nineteen twenty one hundred years after his newborn a lot committing all women to vote went into effect that same year thanks to Susan B. Anthony why Fong were women all over United States put on your best interests and I think it's. A. Nice woman. Political Convention. Well now comes off. I would like to remind you and remind me that this is a very serious movement indeed it's setting him out to change the very deepest way we are organized. To be. Heard from him. Were angry because we only make half as much as men do for doing the same work because we're not supposed to be fit for political office because we get the doll and repetitive and paid around their pain. Work I. Got this in the UK in every movement as some extremism I think some women have to recognize that. This thing takes a certain amount of beingness with amount of change you know that you would say and eventually we will all recognise the need for equal rights for women but I don't see any negative. Side effects of the movements No I think it's all good it's all very very healthy for our country. Well just from my own feeling gut feeling inside I feel more confident in more secure and I think confidence is saying. Confident to the point of couple of days I am still arrogant and you know just good and. It just made me you know aware of my surroundings things you know it opened up a whole new world you know when I read a book it's different when I watch television. And it's different and when I go out it's different and when I went to see a movie I just see things and then in a totally different light and personally that that feeling of confidence is really it really makes me feel good I feel good and it's good. Yeah of the you know I think it's sort of old people have seen the changes must know disability but you can really use visible remember very hesitant and The afraid and when you came in and very down and were yelling yourself and very sort of scared of any of it and now you're not you know yeah I really do like why are we sitting here taking crummy job and I love you I really do feel that way because. I had to feel like I thought of getting bigger I mean everybody. That's. Once you've had the feminist realization there are a lot of. There's a lot of joy to read and like yourself but there's also a lot of pain or raise consciousness is not a blessing. No way or going around the whole circle has anyone noticed says you know I'm afraid. I don't know where I'm going and I don't wear women's liberation square and I'm skint I can wake up in the morning and really be down for the way I've changed my line but I changed that I know for the better but even that has been satisfied then yes. You know does anyone feel fear I'm afraid of whatever I decide to do. Marriage. We're whatever I'm afraid I'm not going to be happy with this one is that I won't ever know myself any better than I do now and the other one is that. That someday all the all the sorry that I've decided to live the way I live that someday I'll build and alone. All right then and I'll be really sorry I guess I'm frightened and I react very strongly about live feeling the responsibility since to where women move to one civilian Ceylon and I'm very conscious of the fact that many women since a great emotional pain in changing. Also perhaps the most frightening part of it is the is growing up is realizing that we are alone are responsible for our own lives and then we have to accept that responsibility that we can have the. We can either. Give the responsibility to someone else for making them what they should be or blame someone else for keeping our lives from from becoming what they should be that some highly feel affected you know the up at seven and dress going somewhere that it would be better and I don't know why that hasn't happened because nothing's really. Stopped me back much I don't know why that you know that I haven't worked to of done something specific that kind of sell right into the mold of house and children and doing that whole thing and I guess because it wasn't a great economic earthen say about working at Put working into more of us apply area we can no longer a woman who has for twenty years been saying if I had married you are going to become a star is now faced with. Finding out where her capabilities really are. I think that that's the hard part about where to get started. You know what it is. I don't really know you know and I think in terms of you know study now to make up resumes and get out and look for a job than than compete with you know eighteen and nineteen year olds for the same kind of jobs and I guess a lot of the jobs that I did don't even exist anymore because publishing is pretty but I don't I don't really know where to go. And it's very frightening. But however frightening it is it's better than the other way. Rather. There is a myth that the movement is against love I don't know how to get started exactly because love can really only exist between equals we know that we who Uncle Tom and giggle and laugh and say how clever of you to know what time it is we know we who put our husbands to graduate school but somehow they never put us through the same school we know we who move for their jobs but they won't move for hours we who take their names and lose and we do we know how much resentment it causes and so I think in a real in a real sense equality and respect. Which is what the movement is about may make love possible for the first time and may make humanism possible for the first time to. Put it in. On it and gone. When you. Speak. To me. How did. You beat three.